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Kalayanee "Kwang" Chaijaroonrat

Call Me Kala, or Kay. :D
Living in her sweet 17 (:
Rulang and Jurongville was my education-based prison.
But I love it, cos I love my friends, and Basketball exists with them.
♥ shh!

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Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
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I want to thank those people out there who has been there for me & showing me their concern ! i guess that at this point of time it can also determine me to know who are those who still care for me and would be there for me no matter how much hardship i'm gg through ! i dont know how to express how much i appreciate but yeah, thanks alot once again.

that's all for tday :'(




FUCK UP & PISSED OFF is all i can describe about my feelgs now.!

knnccbwtf
someone please tell me what to do.
or please tell me that i can run to somewhere that there's peace,
i should have seen it coming long ago !


Before postg anything, i'm very sorry to pollute my blog with so many unglam and uncivilised words. but i guess i've got to write this just to make me feel better ! i really dont understand what exactly is happening with my life now ? there's problem popping up to me every single day in one way or another and its all those problems that are bringing me down. all i want is just to lead a simple life that is fulled with laughter but i guess it can never happen ! this year seems to be th worst year ever.

So, i really dont know whether i should be happy or sad knowing that you still visit my blog occasionally or you just happen to pass by. was i suppose to be happy receiving your message tday or am i suppose to be sad ? is it so difficult to just reply someone's message ? & yet you still bother to ask if my previous post was referring to you. even though if it does or maybe it doesnt, does it really mean anything to you ? i guess NO, it doesnt ! am i suppose to be glad that everything is happening in one time so i'll just have to suffer it once and for all or must i be sad that its happening too sudden and i really cant take it all at once ? i've really got no idea. i've got so many question that even I, myself cant answer and i doubt no one could help me except myself. th confidence that i used to have in myself, th smile that was used to be on my face are lesser and lesser these day. memories are th major factor that is holding me back and forth now and of course there are many other reasons. what am i suppose to do ? move on with life and forget about th past ? i guess so but why cant i seem to do so. sometimes i really think that looking back to the cries would make me laugh; but I never knew that looking back to the laughs would make me cry. i dont know exactly how to explain how vexed i'm feelg now, i've got too much to say and i cant seem to describe it out when i feel like doing it so much. all i know is that i've got enough of this whole thing & i really want to go somewhere that can bring peace into my life. i really want to run away from reality and this world !

Someone out there, please save me before everything get worst ! i seriously cant take it anymore. i'm really too weak to face all this alone, i seriously need someone who can be there for me. perhaps you, but i know it can never happen. & again, dont bother askg me what's wrong or who i'm referring too becuase i will never say. i'm really tired of getting stuck in th middle of this situation.

& lastly, i really want to apologise for blogging out my feelgs here because i cant find other ways to do to make me feel better. i hope you'll understand ! thank you very muchhhh.


P.S. "You could put all the hearts together in the world and that still wouldn't describe how much I love you."





Basically, my current mood is soooooo FCUK UP & PISSED OFF due to something .! i really dont understand what's wrong with my life now at this period of time. shouldnt 2009 be better than 2008, i doubt so becuase thinkg back 2008 wasn't as great as 2007, so 2009 shouldn't be as great as 2008 too ! all i've got to say is i got enough with all this, & i seriously mean enough ! i just feel like running away from reality and running away from this world.

Personally, i really dont understand whats th point of receiving that message from you at this point of time when i thought it was long over ? there's so many other days whereby you can actually send me that message but why did you choose to send it tday ? perhaps you're trying to insult me that i cant seems to let you go or are you just trying to get everything solve ? i've got no idea. but if its because you want to make a joke of me thn i've got to tell you that you failed to do so though i admit that i was hurt so many time becuase of you but i guess it no longer hurting. frankly speaking, i'll still occasionally think of you but i guess its just th memories that are bringing me back and forth.

Anyway if you happen to pass by my blog and read this, i'm sorry to post it all down here but i just couldn't find any other way to vent my anger so i guess by typing out can make me feel better. To those people who are wondering who i'm referring to and what this is all about , dont bother askg because i wont tell you who. & to those who knows what this is all about and were there for me, i greatly appreciate everything you guys have done for me in a way or another.

P.S. "All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."








"If I had the whole world to write on to express how much I love you, it wouldn't all fit."

Happy 17th Birthday to Ellvixson Yap Zhen Kang :DDDDD
may your days ahead be filled with happiness and may all your wish come true ! jia you in everything you do kay ! study hard for O's though its still a long way ! let's mugg hard together ! hahahahahahahas (:

thought i was gg to be late for school tday but i didnt. hahas. okay,damn lucky if not i have to stay back after school which is a total waste of time ! lols. after flag raising, i was caught by Mr. Z_ for my friendship band. wth .! was sent to general office to get it cut off but i manage to pull it out so i was lcuky enough ! went back to class for lesson as per normal !

after school had to stay back for science remedial, so i rush down to buy some snacks to eat. hahas. while waitg for Mr. L_, something damn hilarious happen ! hahas. Zijian fell down when he wanted to sit beside Nurrudin ! hahas. everybody was laughing & he was damn pai seh. anyway, stayed back and went through some worksheet that was done weeks ago. after that i rush off and i went to meet my sweetest ♥♥♥

waited for sweetest awhile at her house bus stop thn we headed to jurong point ! our main point of meetg tday was just to catch up on stuff and we promise to go town together one day uh, sweetest ? our main course. hahas. anyway went to starbuck but it was fulled so we headed to library to slack. had a great time talking to her and we finally had our heart-to-heart talk. alot of unhappiness happen in our daily life as we grow up but i guess this is part of growing up. hahas. what to do, life still has to move on ! anyway after slacking for awhile,we went back to starbuck to have our drinks. i bought chocolate cream chip ! yum yum :DDD after that went to walk around jp to find our bags and sweetest saw something that cuaght her attention ! hahahas. i must say its been so long since i last saw her or had a nice chat with her if you dont include msn ! heh (: anyway she told me alot of things and i was laughing like mad ! okay, told her my stuffs too. & i dont know why i keep on saying pathetic tday, sorry uh! anyway i'm lookg for more outing with you sweetest ! misses ♥♥♥♥

okay, nothing much after that. now i'm right infront of th computer chatting when i should be gg to do my homework.
i'll end my post here for now.

P.S. "I Love you with the breath, the smiles and the tears of all my life."










Well talkg about friends around me, i proudly present this girl here who has been a very close friend of mine. we've been going through those hard and happy times together for th days i spent in my secondary school life. 5 years of friendship and still counting right, aisyah ? hahas. anyway yeah,she's another friend of mine who never fails to have that smile on her face no matter how hard times she's going through ! & we love to tease and play with one another !anyway i only recently know that she's attached !hahas. hey girl, last long with shazwan alright ? stay sweet :p you two look cute together ! you've got my blessing, semoga jodoh korang dua kekal selamanya, is that how you say ? hahas. excuse me if its wrong ! & i love you , my friend ♥♥♥♥♥

Okay,i'm basically gg mad in msn with so many people right now.!
right, i'll end my post here for tday.

Firstly, i know this girl here since my first year in Jurongville, which means we're having 5 years of friendship and still counting on though she's in ITE now (: anyway all i can describe about her is that she's a very cheerful girl who nv fails to have that smile on her face no matter how hard times she's gg through. she's also known as our class louad speaker, try askg around! hahas. she's damn active and out-going & she's one of those who is super hyper active ! hahas. recently, i got to know that she's having a hard time due to her personal matters ! anyway i'm just here to say that no matter how hard you're gg through, your friends like aisyah they all and me will always be there for you,dont worry ! i'll be your listening ear if you need me. just a call or a sms will do too. & i know that with your such positive attitude,you'll be over it soon right ? we're in th same boat now so yeah, lets try our best to overcome all these nonsense stuff thats is coming through our way ! i love you, my friend ♥♥♥

Oh,not forgetting Javier Toh, thanks alottt to youuuuuu ! hahas.

P.S. "I can't seem to erase all the memories of you. No matter how hard I try it's something I can't do." ♥♥♥♥♥

Attention all JVS basketball girls, this drawing is done by your beloved senior , fah ! On behalf of all th seniors, let me wish you girls all th best on this coming friday match and of course th rest of th matches ! Anyway, i'm here to say a few words of encouragement. :DD Dont be afriad of your component,reagrdless of their school or how strong their team is. Just give in your best shot on court as most of you guys would be playing this for th last year. th most important thing is to have confident in yourself. its th process & th experience that is more important & precious, not the result. there's no failures but only learning experiences. we are together as one team, one for all, all for one ! Jia You (: you guys can do it, perserverance and excellence. & please do communicate with each other when playing becuase thats what we are lack of when come to matches.

"It doesn't matter how many say it cannot be done or how many people have tried it before; it's important to realize that whatever you're doing, it's your first attempt at it." & "If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. "












KALA really very very very bored at home.
KALA really want a new school bag badly.
KALA really want a new life.
KALA really want to heck care about everything around her.
KALA really want SHELLY to come back to Singapore soonnnn.
KALA really wants to be aloneeeeeeee.
KALA really need a hair cut.
KALA really need to start exercising.
KALA really need more sleeps.
KALA really need to start focusing on her studies.
KALA really need to meet up with dorisa,soonnnn.
KALA really need a moment of silence, or perhaps a long period of silence.
KALA really need to learn how to move on with life.
KALA really need to learn how to become a strong&independant&happy girl.
KALA really need to learn not to take things so seriously.
KALA really feel like running away from reality.
KALA really feel like running away from this world&never to return back.
KALA really miss SHELLY CHIAU YEE WERN like fcuk.
KALA really cannot take anymore unhappiness things.
KALA really has got enough of all these shit.

P.S. When you're not here something's missing; my smile.









i thought i know you well enough but i was wrong in th end.
you make me think that its wrong to actually be feeling something.

had PE for th first period of th school but i wasnt really lookg forward for it as i was feelg tired due to th late nights i've been having recently. but it actually turn out to be hell lots of fun,joking,playing and foolg around with my classmates. had to run around th school for 2 rounds and i swear it was torturing man. hahaha. after gruoping ourselves, i was being force to be th team leader becuase of sylvester and friends. had a gruop leader briefing thingy with mr tan while th rest had to continue thier another 2 rounds ! hahas. orbi-quack :DDD headed to th basketball court after that for some matches.

Social study was up next, had fun during that period, laughing non-stop like an idiot ! but sadly,there's gonna be an open book test this coming thursday. oh yeah, & i swear i was in pain due to my stupid gastric. physics was alright, i'll have to start revising for friday's class test too! headed down for recess, ate and went up tp class. had poa and i was still laughing like an idiot again. hahas.

After school, alicia came to my class to find me. slack with her while waitg for shelly to finish up with th notice board. sylvester left first to accompany edwin to cuthis hair. headed to jurong point after that to meet my friend. slack still 5 plus and i was too tired so i headed home first.

okay, i've got to hurry and finish up th pile of homework that is waitg for me.

P.S. how i wish i can spent my night in your arms,once again ♥





Emptiness isn't loneliness, it's the missing of you.
i feel that life's a bore, nothing interests me now.
things that make sense are making me miserable,
they're the things that are causing such headache/stress.
i feel like just having a moment of silence, or maybe for a long period of time.
i just dont feel happy anymore,and i really mean anymore.!
i've been trying to put that S-U-P-E-R fake smile on my face,
but its just so difficult to do so. i'm not happyyyyy !
& everytime i try to do so, its hurts me even more and more.
i'm just hopingg,wishg&waitig that some day you might appear right infront of me,once again.

okay,enough of th shit i said or else this post is gonna be so emo!
anyway school has started for like 2weeks(?) & guess what, teachers are bragging everyday. nothing else except :
THE SUPER BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN O'LEVEL & N'LEVEL !
anyway i'm very very very HAPPY to say that i've grown taller by 2 pathetic cm.
at least,i've grown right ? HAHA. i'm just hoping i can grow tall till 170cm.
okay,there's not much things happening in this few weeks yet but rather busy with school stuff. have been visiting some of those polytechnic open house & stayg back in school for science practical.
not forgetting that big pile of homework givin by th teachers !

ohhh, and before i forget about th release of O'level result. let me say something kay ?

congratulation to those who have done well in thier O'level.
& continue to do well in your future academic uh ! jia you :D

and,to those who wasnt please with their result or didnt do well,
dont get dishearted. jia you in everything you do&dont ever think of giving up !
"One has to remember that every failure can be a stepping stone to something better."

seeing my friends drown with thier tears of both happiness and sorrows, just make me wanna cry together with them. th atmosphere in th hall was so tense.
all i was thinkg was that its gonna be my turn reall soonnn & i ought to start studyg !

right,i'll my post here for tonight.

P.S. imissyousomuchhhhhhhhh ♥