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Thursday, March 12, 2009

You know there are so many instances in a day that i can only choose to pen down those that mean something to me & its all about you. How i wish you'd know how much you mean to me. I could not pluck up the courage to say how special you are, there're no words or ways to show my love, or all the thoughts I'm thinking of you. And you still do not realise it. everyday, i hope that i can have you back by my side once again, though i know it's impossible. i used to turn to you when i'm down & you never fail to put that smile back on my face. but i guess i have no one to turn to right now at this very moment of time. after much consideration, all i want is to be someone whom you'll turn to when you need help or anything.

I've been alone so many nights now and I've been waiting for the stars to fall. every night when i close my eyes, it you. i really dislike waking up in the middle of the night because i was caught up thinking of you. Then i thought of you, thought of how i used to text you whenever i couldn't put myself to sleep,or when you call me up just to keep me company. every morning when i wake up its you're face. i'm very glad that at least i'm able to contact you once again after months has past! though it was just a casual talk btw us but it mean more than that. sometimes i wanted to text you, but somehow i can't help but wonder if we've missed out those days for too long. And maybe, things have changed. Or haven't they?

i was wonderg when will i get to see your smile once again. & i even if i really see i guess tears would roll down my face. Maybe you feel that by keeping silent won't hurt me. But it does, silence hurts more... Sometimes it makes me wonder if my message even means anything to you, & i guess it means nothing! Time passes so swiftly i can hardly catch my breath, what's on a constant repeat on my mind is everything you have said, yet it felt like you were true with those words. It didn't seem all like a dream, or was i dreaming all along.. I remembered telling you that you made me happy, i was really happy back then, waking up to hear your voice and to know you're there. Somehow it felt like it was happening, but i couldn't see that it wouldn't last, how blind could i be every time we're so close? silently, i hope the next message i will receive is from you. Foolish, and i don't know why too.

lastly, all i know is that i cherish every moment i had with you and everything you had done or said will always be kept in my mind. nothing can ever replace you nor change th way i feel for you. Memories are the best souvenirs you've given me (:

I do not need your sympathy, nor do i need your comments. Who I am referring to, is not your problem, dont bother askg me who is th person, or guessing who th person is, unless you admit it. It's just a random post by me which consist of my thoughts and feelgs for th past months.